Books have been my saviour, my teacher, my escape, my love and they have played a massive role in helping me to become the person I am today. I cannot imagine my life without them.
As a child I loved to read for hours on end, using my imagination, I would let the story take me on a journey of great adventures. Even as a teenager I always had a book or magazine in my hands.
Fast-forward to married life, raising 3 children, all born within 3½ years of each other, running a small business as well as working part-time took away my “me time” to sit and read – which was one of the many loves I put aside because after all I had more important things to do – right???
As time past and the kids become more independent, I found myself occasionally reading a Mills & Boons romantic novel – because by then my marriage was on the rocks and my love life sucked. What better way to have an imaginary love affair without physically getting involved? Looking back, I can honestly say Mills & Boon helped me to stay sane at that time in my life. (Stop giggling, I was only in my mid 20’s then).
I first started on my journey of spiritual awareness after my second marriage broke down. Whoa!! I hear you say – yep I know I was a slow learner.
Picture this …. I was a single parent, raising three kids, broke, broken and lost. The kids were all in high- school by this time and I had time on my hands to do a little reading during school hours.
I couldn’t afford to buy books so I would go to the local library and spend hours there. At first, I started reading novels like The Burning Shore, River God, and The Seventh Scroll by Wilbur Smith. These amazing books allowed me to escape the reality of my poor life choices.
As time went by, I ventured away from the non-fiction section to the Self-Help section and one of the very first books I read was called Love is the Answer by Gerald Jampolsky. I remember this book well because it had a significantly profound effect on me and how I viewed life.
He spoke about Unconditional Love, two little words that at the time was like a foreign language to me. Up until that point in my life I can honestly say I had never heard of unconditional love. If I had heard those two words together, I am certain I would not have made the connection and I am sure I would have blocked it out, because it was something I had never experienced before in my life. You only know what you know.
I realised that I was a people pleaser, I did everything that everyone expected of me in order to have them love me. On reflection, I now realise that I gave my power over to them because I felt unworthy of love. The more I gave the more they took – they placed conditions on their love for me. If I did something for them then they turn would do or buy something for me. If I said no, I would cop some form of physical and/or verbal and mental abuse. So of course, I quickly learnt to say yes.
I had put my own needs, desires, thoughts and feelings aside, because I didn’t love myself unconditionally so would anyone else love me. At the age of 36, I had my greatest revelation and understanding of life itself and it came from reading a book. From that day forward my life changed and wow how it changed.
I have read a-lot-of-books over the past 25years, some of them have had a profound effect on how I view my life and some giving me a swift kick up the butt and helped me to get out of my own way.
I love my life and all the twists and turns it has taken me on and now it is time for me to share some of my insights and journeys with you. I will endeavour to do this through the books I have selected as part of my online store as well as sharing my story through regular My View – Through the Window to My Soul - Blogs.
Love n light
Rise Sister Rise by Rebecca Campbell
A guide to unleashing the wise, wild woman within
Many Lives, Many Masters by Dr Brian Weiss
The true story of a prominent psychiatrist, his young patient, and the Past Life Therapy that changed both their lives.